Somebody save me they're making me blog - A very late mid-year art update

So over the course of the year, I was supposed to be documenting my artboard progress however, if you've been paying attention, you may notice I haven't blogged since July when I posted a poor quality piktochart for English. As for art blogs, I haven't posted since the 1st of March when I promoted Taemin's music and that blog had very little to do with my board. So here I am, writing my wrongs and updating you all about my artboard. 

Now if we go way back to my last artboard you may have noticed that I stated the following, "...I've changed my theme to something else. So, I'm not doing anything with childhood anymore cause that was a dumb idea and I'm doing something else." And I still stand by that. The childhood idea I had WAS dumb and I'm doing something else now. My brand new kaupapa is to do with Jewish traditions surrounding death and my grandpa. If you haven't made the connection, my grandpa is dead (rip) and originally it wasn't going to be the center point for my board because when I started he was still alive but then, you know, things evolved and now that's the main point/inspiration I guess??? At the moment I'm going to make board 1 more about the spiritual side of death and the Jewish traditions. I'm involving Jewish traditions because I'm Jewish. Here's what I've done so far.

The first three paintings on my board are these three

So on the left, we have hands. In the middle, we have a candle on a table because in judaism if someone dies you gotta light a candle for them. Then on the right, we have Jewish words. That one took a while to figure out because initially I was going to have the entire mourner's kaddish but it was really long and wasn't going to fit. Instead, I just wrote zichrono livracha which means "May his memory be for a blessing" Below you can see some of the ideas I had initially for it.

This is me ruling out lines to test how many lines I would need to do if I wanted to include the mourner's kaddish. As you can I would need to do 15 lines of tiny writing which I messed up multiple times.

Here I painted the words on a painted page of my sketchbook. I was thinking of linking it to my hands where I used some color in the shading but I didn't like it with the white. In the end, I just did plain white and made it less centered. 

Anyway look at this funny tiktok I found

@erwins_leftarm history hates lovers. #fyp ♬ original sound - oublaire

Anyway back to blogging about art

Now for the lower half of board 1, I'm going to add this painting I'm doing of a coat stand and one of the coats is gonna be in black and white which will link to the ghost theme that I have going on in the hand and candle paintings. 

This was the initial sketch and I was just going to have it be located in a black void, however, I didn't like it and when it came to actually paint it, I wasn't sure how to paint it so I just add walls. Also, I was thinking of having the green coat on the ground with a purple coat on the hanger but then I, just, didn't? I don't know why but in the end I decided to have a ghost coat and one real coat. Here's the google keep sketch I did of that:

Right, now because I decided to add walls later, I had to paint over the black gesso. So this is the first version:

Now I scraped this and restarted because the paint was getting very thick and muddy which caused the paint to come out really patchy and not nice looking I tried to fix it but I was just not vibing with it and the paint wasn't vibing so I started again:

Now I had started the shadow but it wasn't working so I've painted the shadow and started again. Also after consulting with the council we've come to the conclusion that it's necessary to add another wall so the shadow isn't so big. I kinda wish I had a photo because hot damn that shadow was ugly. Like, what was I thinking??? It looked so bad oml.

To complete board 1 I'm going to do two more paintings with one playing of the tradition of opening a window if someone dies in an enclosed space to allow for the spirit to leave the building. I don't know what I'm going to do for the second picture but I might just do more words like I did earlier. 

Here's what that might look like:

And what the layout might look like:

Ok for another break I would like to make sure anyone reading this has listened to ABBA's new music. If you haven't you can listen to one of them (my personal favorite of the two) "Don't shut me down". The other song they realized is more of a ballad/slower song which I'm not a big fan of. I don't really like slow/balladesque songs. 

Right, now we're going to look at board two. 

For board two I'm planning on leaning more into the physical aspect of losing someone. I'm going to include objects, empty rooms, etc. At the bottom of board two I'm going to have these two rooms: 

The one on the left is based on in-home hospice care and it's kinda like, you know it's coming. Like, if you're having in-home hospice care ya know. It's probably not going well. Then on the right, I'm going to finish painting my grandparent's lounge.

The board layout will most likely look something like this:

The top three paintings will be objects such as a magic trick coin box my grandpa gave me, a balloon animal, and I don't what the third will be but I might make it a mango (there's a story there) or chocolate covered raisins (another story).

I don't know what'll I'll do for the middle but I'm thinking of doing one of this memory I have of my grandpa. So, I was staying in the lounge and I was asleep but then I did that thing where I was partially awake and sort of out of it. Anyway, I look to my left and in the doorway, I see this shadowy figure and I think "what the hell is that." Now, this is the middle of the night and I watch the shadow go sit down at the computer and start playing solitaire online, and then it clicks and I go "oh, that's grandpa" and then I fall back asleep. However, I'm hesitant to paint it cause I think the area I want to paint might make the painting abnormally long. I'm going to wait and measure it out first and maybe shorten it. We'll have to wait and see. 

Anyway, I made this meme about Mrs. Clemence:

Mrs. Clemence if you're reading this I really hope you find it funny :)